Saturday, March 8, 2008
When I was younger and fancied myself disciplined enough to become an outstanding horsewoman, I read a magazine called Practical Horseman. I enjoyed most a recurring article called The Thinking Horseman the author would recount events in her life as a horsewoman. The articles were introspective, interesting, and humorous.
When I started this blog, it was to share our family's life with our extended family and a way of chronicling Abigail's life for all of us. Soon it became my way of working through all the things I was learning about myself as a woman, a wife, and a mother. The way all those things work together. I remember reading a book Elisabeth Elliot wrote to her daughter when she got married. I remember reading Passion and Purity as a teenager and I find my writing style to be a little like that.
Now that we are closer and Abigail's extended family can see more of her, I don't necessarily use this place as a chronicle of her life, but as a chronicle of my own because of her life. Perhaps the reason my family doesn't read as much any more, but that is another subject. And I think of the parents who write in their Bibles and present them to their children when they reach a certain age or the scrapbookers who create beautiful tomes of memories for their children.
So what is this blog because of abigail? After all some of you are visiting from the Ultimate Blog Party and have patiently waited for me to get to my point. (Not a very exciting introduction, but a pretty accurate portrayal of what happens here.) What is my goal? And some of you who have been reading this are probably tired of this question. (I have been mulling it over for quite some time.) I find myself desiring all of these things; introspection, exposure, and holiness.
I want my children to have a picture of their mother's journey through this life with all its identity crises and all the ways Christ reveals Himself to me through my interactions with the world. I want my daughter to know that she is dearly loved and valued when she finds herself struggling with all the issues womanhood, wifehood, and motherhood bring with them.
Along the way I hope to encourage and entertain others for I think we all find ourselves in these places, but ultimately because of abigail is for Abigail. I want to join the ranks of wives and mothers who allowed God to change their identity from one of singleness to one of community in the lives of those He entrusted to her. I love the picture of Abigail on my header so thoughtful as she licks the batter from the beater. I want the same joy of fully enjoying all the delicacies God has given me in such a way as to become more of who He created me to be.