Praying

Tomorrow is the first day of spring. Oh happiness. I love spring. I want to celebrate but haven't a way yet. Maybe springy cupcakes. Decorate some and freeze the rest.

And the Easter weekend is coming up. I haven't talked about it with Abigail at all and I'm not sure how to talk with her about the death and resurrection of Christ.

The house sale is progressing. In fact they are moving the closing date into March. Yipee! But I am discontent and unsettled. I can't figure out what to do with the money. The money we are getting and the money we're saving. I want to spend it. I want to save it. I want the self-control to not eat out.

Oh Lord, today my heart is deceitful, turning me about in hundreds of ways. Ways I can neither see, nor hear, nor discern. Strengthen my will, Father.
Guide my hands to do your good work. Show me how to play with Abigail and how to include her in the day's chores.
Help me to guard and spend wisely the treasures you have entrusted to me. Teach me anew to give extravagantly of love, mercy, grace, gentleness, peace, kindness, patience, faithfulness, and self-control. Place your reins on my tongue.
Forgive me for raising my voice to Abigail in impatience and anger. Help me to faithfully teach her in all patience and love to conform to your will. Let me judge well my motives and methods. Show me when I am disciplining for eternal purposes and when I am just being expedient and selfish.
God, I want to be a good mom, but I have such a wicked nature and mothering just seems to bring it out. I want to touch and care for Abigail with the new nature free of sin you have given me, but the old is beating up the new! Protect her from my missteps and my sin. Strengthen and grow the new nature in me.
Give me wisdom, today.