Sunday, July 29, 2007

Where's My Heart

As some of you know Chris and I do not hail from Michigan. We come from the Appalachian part of the Mid-Atlantic states--Pennsylvania and West Virginia. And we always thought we would like to return there, closer our families. Well the time has arrived for us to look, and look we are, seriously. And people are looking at us. Actually it is just one company and really they're looking at Chris. In the great job hunting scheme a company hires an employee and I am more an appendage. One they want to make and keep happy, yes, but an appendage nonetheless.

So where is this jabbering taking me? Now that relocating seems possible, I am becoming quite attached to "home". You know, where my heart is. And I have been doing a lot of thinking about home lately. Yes, home is the place we live, but it is also where so much of my attention has been. "The focus of one's domestic attention" the dictionary calls it. I wanted to create a "familiar and congenial environment" (another dictionary phrase) for my family.

Yet that doesn't encompass the family God has given us here. Not to replace the families we came from, but to help us understand His plan, to give us a glimpse of heaven. Those friends I don't know what I will do without. Those friends who have walked with us through storms only God and His people can weather together and find thanksgiving.

So I worry and fret and wonder over events that haven't yet happened. I know, ridiculous, but we all do it! And I complain to God. (I'm so thankful for the Psalms; what glorious complaining.) Somewhere in that complaining and fret and worry, I find God speaking to me. "For our citizenship is in heaven. . ." This is not your home. "Do not store up for your selves treasure on earth where moth and rust destroy and where theives break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven where neither moth nor rust destroys, and where theives do not break in and steal, for where your treasure is there your heart will be also." Be careful your attachement to place.

Heaven is my home; I am passing through. I have been bought with a price and on my way through I have a purpose. As we think about and pray about moving I must remind myself that God's plan includes a place in His family for me wherever we live and He has a plan for me that will draw on everything He has given me so far. (And the reunion He is planning for us in heaven! Yoo hoo!)

4 comments:

  1. sarah, I have to say that my heart stirs w/ excitement at the thoughts of you and your family being in WV or closer... transitions are hard, though; are you close to making any kind of decision? call me; i miss you!

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  2. I totally understand Sarah. I've been there. Making that decision is difficult, to say the least. We still miss our 'family' in Michigan terribly, but there is no replacing God's will for our lives. As hard as it is, I'd rather be lonely and in the center of His will than surrounded by family and friends but outside his will. I'll be praying for you and Chris as you consider this move and change.

    Love you, miss you!
    Deanne

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  3. You know that I would love to have you closer but that decision is totally up to you and Chris.
    Mom

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  4. I'll be praying for you, that you guys make the decision that will make you happy. Because I believe that is what God wants - for us to be happy.

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