So this weekend we were invited to our neighbor's daughters' birthday party. One girl turned 12 the other 2. Abigail and their little one play together and we enjoy the time we have spent with our friends. We were looking forward to the party and Abigail couldn't stop thinking about it since we got her friend a gift. We have on occasion met various members of their extended family and knew they lived in this neighborhood for a long time.
The party was at a bowling alley in the next town. It was a fun drive in a direction we had yet to take. When we got to the party, I quickly realized that I didn't know many people at all and everyone else knew each other. I don't like situations like that when I am reminded that I am an outsider wanting to be an insider. I realize that I am far more like the teenager I thought I had left behind than I like to admit.
Anyway, what did I do? I offer to help. My answer to any situation where I feel uncomfortable. Offer to help. That way I don't have to try to engage others in conversation; I'm too busy being helpful. Until I was scooping ice cream to accompany the cake, I didn't know why I always offer. I am worth attending, worth the invitation when I am helping and, of course, it is a way to hide from others. (I have a new compassion for men asking women on a date--always the risk of being rejected. It takes a toll.)
Sitting here writing I am reminded that though a heart of service is high on God's priority list, it is a heart delighting in serving others, not in using a virtue to escape relationship with others and find our worth apart from Him. For God's call is first to "Come." and find yourself in Him. Then the call is to "Go." and invite others to "Come."
What about you? Did anyone have their own epiphanies this weekend? What have you learned about yourself or the Lord or yourself and the Lord recently?